An Unusual Encounter

It was a pleasant weather probably a little cold one could say. I wasn't covered with anything except my night clothes. It was a little uneasy that night but I could still sleep. I was in my room on the top floor while my mom dad were sleeping in the room downstairs. I had kept all the windows and doors open including the door that connects to the balcony. It simply gave me a sense of openness and freedom. I was sleeping on half of the very thick spring mattress which was lying on the floor while the other half was occupied by my electric guitar. Apart form this I had a table with few books and my laptop on it, an amp for my guitar n two chairs in the room. It was the simplest possible arrangement with no useless stuff and a lot of space. I couldn't think of taking anything more out of the room... hmmm probably few books... but it was fine...

I felt something very cold past by me and stopped near my legs. I didn't care and was too lazy to look. But even after a few moments it didn't go away. I looked down. I saw a dissolved human figure with a black round neck t-shirt and a blue jeans floating a few feet above the ground near my legs. It didn't have much hair on the head. It was smiling and directly looking at my face. I was surprising not scared. I directly saw at the figure. It smiled at me and said "shashank you have to come with me". I couldn't understand what was going on. And before I could it suddenly held one of my legs and started pulling me. I was suddenly dragged at a very fast pace by this enormous force. I could see all the things around me left behind, all the light sources turning into light rays. I had no control over my body at all. I was totally helplessly dragged by his figure for many seconds.

Suddenly I opened my eyes. I was breathing heavily, my heart was beating very fast. I was sweating. Half of my body was on he mattress and the other half on he floor. I was confused. I had no freakin idea what had just happened. I got up, sat on the bed for few seconds. I realised it was late at night probably three or four. I got up and sat on the table, opened the screen of my laptop n woke it up. I opened safari and the home page popped up. It showed the add of iPhone 4. Contained major features telling the soon launch of iOS 5 and the iCloud. That was usual and the page had been same for the long time. I closed safari and got up from the table and fell back on the mattress.

It had been only few minutes I guess, I again felt something cold near me. I was too scared to open my eyes. Suddenly it said "u must come shashank", held both my hands and started dragging me. I could feel myself seeing upwards being pulled by this black t-shirt diffused figure with a power I could not resist. Once again I opened my eyes and found my hands above my head sweating, breathing heavily and heart beating so heavily that my whole body could feel it. I woke up sat up again for few seconds. This time my sleep had vanished. I was no more in a mood to sleep anymore. Maybe be because I was confused or may be because I wanted to understand what was happening to me.

I went back to the table and relaunched safari. The same homepage with all the information I had already seen million times. That didn't interest me much. I closed the browser and went outside to the balcony. It was dark. The street lights were spreading their yellow light all over. It was a quiet time with a little breeze. I could feel the calmness and quietness of the night. It was relaxing specially after what had suddenly happened. I started walking back and forth into the balcony.  Suddenly I felt a very cold chilling breeze past by me. I started shivering. This happened for probably a few seconds. I couldn't understand anything. This was really weird and unusual. I was confused.

I walked for a few more minutes and then came back in the room. I sat on my table, opened my laptop again n launched safari. What I saw this time while expecting the old page made my heart sink, my head spin, and a stream of sadness flowing all inside me. I couldn't believe my eyes... it had a black and white picture of an almost bald guy with little white beard, it said... "Steve Jobs 1955 - 2011"

my tech work n the reasons which screwed my acads...!!! ;)

a 38KHz modulated IR TSOP...

the first time stepper motor rotated...

never stopped after that... ;)

iFollower...

my AWESOME line following robot... ;)

a battery level indicator for an N 'c' battery... ;)

one of the finest creations by me...

iPendulum...

a two wheel balancing robot with SA-IMU

combined with accelerometer and gyroscope n stuff... ;)

sexiest object i have ever worked upon... ;)

expensive... 45k board + 5.5L worth of development environment... !!!

PSoC and ARM define the world today...

its AWESOME that i m in love with both n better i can really understand them...

{ increases the bond in our relationship... ;) }

a trio so perfect... ARM...AVR...ARDUINO

all above a MACBOOK PRO (my love for APPLE is never ending)

  

a PSoC first touch...

explains the power of a C51...

imagine what an ARM core on PSoC would do... !!!!

n for those of you non tech guys n gals who couldn't understand a single word above 

wont leave u disheartened !!!

m sure u will get this... me with my car

my experience : driving an ACCORD is like driving a spaceship... its AWESOME

cheers

iShanx

a typical exam strategy ( a case study)

woof… finally i get some free time to spend with myself..

my last few weeks had been hectic like hell. lots of work n night outs. not that i hate them, i like working a lot and… ok fine i hate them i am a lazy spoilt brat enjoy sleeping late and getting up even later. NO CLASSES… an added bonus !!!but now some free time, not that i m expected to be free now but you know i love working things not expected from me or i deviate from idealistic behavior… thats fun… ppl call it stupid, i call it out of the box free thinking n working… sorry guys u cant keep my thoughts hooked up to some useless stuff… ( "some birds are not meant to be caged…" remember ??? )

ok let me say something beforehand. i m a firm believer of scientific work n solid science… but sometimes u got to accept the fact that there r things which r much tougher than science however simple they might seem to be… well maybe because there is no specific formula for their working and thats what makes it difficult… try managing a crying baby or convince a prof who caught u cheating… i would rather solve a hundred physics problems than involve in those activities…

one such activity i feel is the ability to see the most abstract of the phenomenas of life in the day to day regular activities… well i suppose u need to have a third eye n an extra brain to see n process those hidden things...

n as i have been taught management for a semester now (remember has been taught i never said i studied it :) ) i have started loving the case study method… well tomorrow i have a case study for which i m expected to study the case given to me by my prof… as usual i m doing something i m not expected to do… i m writing a case here… ( by the way M2M = Mark to Market accounting… )

THE CASE :

i was deep asleep in my room (awesome!!!)… "bang bang bang " suddenly three very hard bangs on my room door… i got up not to open but to kill the person who did that but there is a universal truth to kill that person i needed to OPEN THE DOOR (ok… not a good one) !!!

"tell me why does an induction motor not vibrate however a normal DC motor does… ??" it was my sidie and one of my closest friends apurav i couldn't believe him asking such a question because all anyone had heard him ever asking any questions were like "the gross income of AVATAR or highest paid cricketer or maybe the latest scandal on PAGE3 " ( thank god it was him because if it was not him i was gonna get a sem-back… hmmm how ?? keep thinking…!! ) !!!! was that question worth three hard bangs on my room… "what the hell is an induction motor and r u all right ??"

"forget it lets go to the lunch" he had just come from electrical class (the only one he had ever slept in, rest he slept at room…) n had learnt something interesting… no no no not interesting at that time.. i mean who gives a damn about the vibrations of some motor… yeh they do have a particular naughty side but thats all together a different subject… ;) every thing has its importance at right time… " we will watch a movie after lunch"… agreed like if he asked about studying i would do it !! n if he didn't want to give the answer why he asked and more importantly dude u can always knock the door… never mind...

******

few weeks later we had an exam of electrical… well not a soul outside its room n everybody was damn busy mugging up for this exam i don't know what's the deal, some start taking it as a matter of life n death… bang bang bang.. it feels so nice to take revenge… my dear friend apurav on the other hand was watching "HEROES"… that was actually not amazing because it was his usual stuff… for every exam he had a plan a solid plan… its like this (btw this is not just his plan its a universal strategy followed by majority of students lazy enough to develop one (ME INCLUDED) :

if there is an exam on monday 0800hrs (one hr exam) preparation starts on saturday

1. watch lots of movies n stuff the whole night and sleep on sunday 5000 hrs (so that one doesn't regret that he's only studying all the time)

2. get up at 1230 hrs sunday have lunch n come back to room

3. find out which exam is there on next day then watch a movie

4. open the book at like 1800 hrs and analyze the course

5. go to dinner at 1900 hrs ( it took 1.5 hrs analyzing… but it pays off later !!! n if asked at dinner "kitnaa kiya ?? " replies " abhi to dekha hi hai yaar" )

6. come back and start the preparation after watching a 20min TV serial

7. prepares religiously n properly solving examples n reading the theory also plan to solve the additional questions at the end of chapters

8. 2300 hrs - realizes the shortage of time so decides to skip the additional questions, still reads the theory and solves the examples

9. 0030 hrs - a short trip to All Night Canteen discussing the ways one can get screwed in the exam

10. 0130 hrs - reading theory and only reading examples properly ( realizes that he should have gone to lectures n decides will go from now on… which btw never happens)

11. 0200 hrs - takes a power nap for 15min

12. 0300 hrs - wakes up from the power nap, watches the time n grieves for like 5mins for taking a power nap n 5mins yelling at sidie for not waking him up the

13. 0310 hrs - considering the lack of time reads only the theory

14. 0335 hrs - turns the pages to find out no. of chapters left to study n the ones safe to leave( prior analysis in step 4 helps here ) n start studying them

15. 0400 hrs - starts skimming through the selected text in step 14 paying attention only to the formulae and their symbols (n continuously being surprised about how much can be taught in few lectures )

16. 0430 hrs - sleeps realizing whatever be the case he is screwed in the exam tomorrow and will study harder for the next one

17. 0750 hrs - wakes up n sees all the doors locked realizing that everybody left for the exam and he is alone in the wing

18. 0752 hrs - opens intrabits website to see the classroom for examination but doesn't find a thing there

19. 0754 hrs - starts a full sprint from room to the classrooms or rather the notice board to find the sitting arrangement

20. 0805 hrs - reaches the classroom, takes the question paper and spends some time finding a seat behind someone ghot( but these are the seats of maximum demand and are filled first, sometimes fixed a day before!!)

21. 0806 hrs - forced to sit behind a duffer who even without knowing anything thinks that knows a lot n intentionally hides his paper as if the he were the biggest cheater of the world

22. 0810 hrs - reads the 1st question writes the given data n leaves 2 pages , repeats the same for all questions

23. 0837 hrs - demands for an extra sheet(as previous was filled by leaving pages) and withstand the hundreds of "i-cant-believe-anybody-writing-so-much" or "must-have-studied-a-lot" or "this-is-the-asshole-who-will-increase-the average-this-time" looks filled with haterate

24. 0845 hrs - the invigilator(usually named the 'exam devil') shouts to write the individual's instructor(the prof. teaching the course in his section) name n wrap up the paper when he realizes that he doesn't even have a clue who his instructor is

25. 0852 hrs - the invigilator snatches the paper from his hand n the nightmare finally gets over…

this is usually followed by a walk back to room with the friends, with a mutual understanding of not discussing the paper or not even bringing the topic n behave as if nothing happen just before… but finally it ends by an estimate of the average and how much is he below average and a minus 2 for not writing the instructors name… n finish it with the valedictory statement 'fuck it, any ways i will get a C in this course'… but finally ends up getting a D… ( this explains a height of optimism )

however sometimes this strategy takes its various dangerous forms like jumping from step 11 to directly step 17 or maybe from step 10 to directly step 18( and wonders the blanked out !! ) but whatever be the case in my general observation step 9 is never skipped neither step 1… yes guys(and also gals i m equally considerate or majority of the times more to the other part of homo sapiens!!) it has happened with me and let me tell you it is really one of the worst feelings in the world… don't believe me ?? try it…

but this time apurav had a different strategy a complete plan…!!!! believe me he did have one.. he was at an informative advantage, he knew why induction motors do not vibrate… why doesn't it ??? his face lit up… u brief me about the whole course and i tell u the answer to this question…

MY OBSERVATION :

now even apurav might have never heard of this Mark to Market technique he had applied it pretty well in his case changed his strategy from simple to m2m… well done apurav !!!

apurav had been at an informative advantage when he asked the question… he made an investment and knew the future profits of it before hand. he booked those profits(which he had not received till now) and rewarded himself bonuses of not studying n watching movies n stuff… still those profits were not in his hands but he did have them written down on his balance sheets… no he doesn't maintain any balance sheets n stuff of course he won't. i m just being just too technical :) but the felling and motive remains the same…

later when required to receive the profits he tried an exchange of his information… but i m sorry bro you failed to realize one important thing… though we are living in a world where information gives a competitive advantage its still not that easy… a knowledge of proper application of this strategy (the information competitive advantage) is a must…

this remind me of the phenomena Value Chain : the value a company creates is measured by the amount that buyers are willing to pay for a product or service. in your case your information… and i believe a business is profitable if the value it creates exceeds the cost of performing the value activities… well bro the value of your information was worth like 3 marks which you tried to exchange for an information worth like 60 marks… may it could have worked but you picked the wrong person, i know how business is done buddy !!!

well its not the first time m2m has screwed somebody. it keeps doing this now and then whenever people keep on applying it intentionally or unintentionally after all this was the same technique that lead to the downfall of the giant ENRON Corp. when those giants couldn't see it we are just at the start !!! i wonder when this strategy has ever helped in good… whatever be the case people still keep applying this technique all the time maybe because you get rewarded faster in this way and thats what people work for and get motivated by ( ADAM SMITH dude…!!! )…

i don't know how long i m going to live before apurav reads this comes and kills me but before that i must specify the points that are proved…

1. no matter whatever you do m2m will screw you (i want to find a case where it doesn't)

2. estimate the market value of your product before building any future prospects on them

3. if you do not have proper knowledge of business do not do it with the one who has

4. if you manage to get good results with any of the above strategy you are genius and if you get good results even if the strategy takes its one of the dangerous forms please meet me personally you are GOD…

5. whatever happens you can always take apurav as a subject for your next blog !!!

cheers

iShanx

burnt bridges

the status message on my friend nimish's gtalk profile :

nothing's ever built to last. i walked away, she moved on........ something in this heart died..........the hardest thing in life is to know which bridge to cross and which to burn

i feel writing anything about it will destroy its beauty...

i read it and read it again and again...

its beautiful :)

failure ( of justice ???... may be ) at last...

how does it feel when you loose...

how about this... when you are much closer to success ( may be a step away from it.. )

is it annoying ?? nopes !! for me its devastating, i don't feel bad i feel worst...

frankly speaking i am almost all the time always up to something or the other until i know its going to help me in some way or another... one such thing is that i spend most of my free time ( apart from my hobbies which many people find wierd !! ) in front tv... lol but the only difference is that i watch only discovery or natgeo - love them... ( i feel rest all on tv are bull.... )

yesterday i got up at 8 pretty early for me :) and started working... worked till 1 pm. ultimately the pcb sketch for my new project was ready :)... i was happy that i saved few days of soldering :) then i realized the board was not proper i had to delete the .brd file and make again from the base .sch file. i deleted it... but to my horror i deleted he .sch file... all my work was gone :(

DEVASTATED...

oh... ya back to tv... so yesterday after this happened to me i was thinking about all such things happened to me... lots of them in my life... so was kind of habitual of this... then i went to see tv

there is this new series started at nat geo - 'jailed abroad', i dint know somehow i just love the show... one of the best i have ever seen... any way so this episode was about the girl lia mccord and according to nat geo -

"Eighteen year old Lia McCord wanted to go to college but her parents couldn't afford the Fees. The A grade students solution to the problem was simple, if a little naïve…become a heroin smuggler. But her naïve plans went horribly wrong and she faced the death penalty in a squalid prison in Bangladesh."

now apart from the fact that they had a really very cute and sexy actor ( Marya Leal )

try this......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LcIkRq6pm4Y

or

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HVi1Y92Z0Ds&feature=related )

for the girl here this story really had some power...

lets see... this girl was in need, had financial problems and all sorts of depressing issues with her, she was 18 and seriously speaking at this age all sorts of mental problems arise to most of us ( some for good an some for no reason ) and under such circumstances she decides to take a step for her future. believe me i can feel how bad it feels when you are capable of something but cannot do it just because of some fuckin financial problem ( she was straight A's ) or stuff...

so there she was,did what she felt was appropriate at that time

so lia went to this place to get heroin in the states... but later she realized that this was not good for her and tried to escape twice or thrice but she couldn't and was ultimately forced to do the smuggling... there was this instant when she bypassed the security check and was almost out of it and was straight going to the aircraft at the airport just when a lady officer came out and asked her to come back for security check. if the lady officer was few seconds late lia might have escaped, so from a few seconds difference and a step away from success she ended up into the cops hands... and after my incident i can very well feel how she felt! ... well a must watch series (episode) for all... practically u really get the feel of situation by watching it... :)

well... whatever be the reason she had done something wrong and she deserved punishment...

but here comes the nightmare, the worst possible, a 'death penalty' !!! yes there in bangladesh u get this for smuggling drugs... well she was lucky she narrowly escaped it and got an imprisonment for 40 years... and more lucky she was that she was out of prison in 4 years 6 months... ok some congressman rescued her... :)

but after watching this another question was raised in my mind... if somebody does this in bangladesh - 'capital punishment' and in US it is something like 5 years of prison and some fine...

does this mean that if somebody does some act like this in bangladesh than (s)he has committed a bigger crime than does the same thing in the states ( and how about the places where capital punishment is abolished ) ?????

does it mean ( crime committed IN bangladesh/iran..etc ) >>> ( crime committed IN norway/south africa/ italy ) for the same act of crime ????

i really didn't get much of it... but frankly speaking i feel something wrong,

either she was punished more than she deserved or the other people in the world are being punished less than they deserve. if its justice then why is it not same on whole earth ???

is justice bound by the boundaries of countries ???

sad i am still not at a conclusion to this question of my mind... hope to get it soon till then it will always remain in my mind !!

practically its not cheating...

day before i was just sitting in my room implementing a project on some accelerometer gyroscope sync and stuff...( 4get it might be too technical just some robotics project :) )

and as usual i got stuck somewhere... sad :(

u know what i feel is that its a human tendency that when (s)he gets stuck in something (s)he either (1) starts hating it to maximum extent or (2) gets more excited to get out of the situation...

speaking truth i have been the victim of both... mostly (2). but yesterday somehow situation (1) took over my brain and as usual after a little thought over my project my thoughts started wondering all over the universe ... from the death of michael ... girls ... to british army ... girls ... bill gates ... girls ... steve jobs... i don't know somehow i think about these 2 guys and a word something like success or crap flashes to my mind ( weird !!! ) ... and this ultimately leads to my future thoughts... may be i would love to do an mba from hbs or kellog or some place... then some lot of hard work and stuff... but more importantly this follows with a thought in my brain so entangled in itself and my brain that the more i think the more confuse i become lets see it...

i will put down some of few very important situations in my life which i think i will never forget and then lets see if i come up to some solution...

NOTE : every incident is REAL from my life and there is no work of fiction. and one more thing in any situation i might refer to a person ( REAL ) lets call him(her) 'x' i don't want a bunch of people coming and beating me if they so happen to read this :) ...

situation 1

scenario :

class 9th maths 2nd term answer sheets distribution.

into it :

mam called out my name. i went there took my paper came back... as usual i got some 96% crap... me happy... mom and dad happy... teacher happy hard work worked.

'x' mam called out. x happened to be a very nice friend of mine but not so good at mathematics actually speaking at any subject. came back sat beside me. "shit i got 53 u got a red pen ?? " x asked me. " nopes " i said. well let me tell you this friend of mine 'x' is a very determined person got up and came back a few minutes later with a red pen. " here it is two c's and my 53 turns into 58... :) :) :) " - this was his face... still not satisfied.

"boss ... my totaling is 68 not 58, i'll say mam she'll ask u to verify because you are sitting beside me you got high marks you are her favourite... oh forget you just ask her to verify my paper as soon as i ask her for my total mistake when she comes here. just do it or i might have to repeat the class. " me... surprised... plan successful... his answer sheet in my hands. i didnt know what to do, shall i break the trust of my teacher or shall i be responsible for one year of my friend 'x'... both options were unfair to me. ultimately my friend won. " mam a totaling mistake in his paper one 6 marks and one 4 marks questions not added "... she came to my seat smiled at me and wrote 68 on his paper... now all happy. i couldnt sleep that night.

situation 2

scenario :

just before the start of our chemistry 12th board practical examination.

into it :

" you did everything ?? " ... x

" yes you ?? " ... me

" yeah "

" so where are you hiding it ?? "... x

" in my pocket :) "... i said nervously

" so am i " ... x proud of himself

"y" enters into the situation

" you both got it ?? "... y

"yeah" ... me

" you'll be using it ?? "

" definitely.... :) " ... x

" dont do it its not right "... y

" fuck you " ... me

ok "it" here refers to a very famous object used in examinations to save oneself from the failure and come out happily from the examination hall if used properly or the consequences can be extremely dangerous. yes you got me right... a piece of paper with all the info. of the world written on it to help yourself that day ( as said very well" God helps those who help themselves " )... we made our own chits :):)

the exam went by and we used our object as efficiently as possible again... :) :) :)

result came by...

me and "x" got full

"y" lost some 2 or 3 marks

(s)he was still happy...

even i was very happy

i slept very well that night ... finally !!!! :):)

situation 3

scenario :

me into aieee examination hall... nervous

into it :

" hey " said x sitting beside me

" hi "... was not in a mood to talk to him

" how r u ? "

i didnt reply

" listen i am sitting in here but i know least i know cant get through this it seems you have studied a lot can you show me ???? "

what a freak i thought its a national level examination nt kiddin if something happens we both screw our carriers before it starts. i knew what he wanted still i asked " what do you want to see?"

"the answers, you just write normally and dont intentionally hide it dont see towards me behave i am not there dont worry nothing is going to happen i was in this school only ( the center ) our invigilator today is an idiot i know her well i use to eat my lunch in her class she never caught anybody too lenient. "

"ok but dont disturb me at all "

"you wont even know that i am seeing " :) - his face

exam started after every answer i ticked he turned few pages of his paper and ticked something.

after the exam was over

" hey how many answers are you sure you have answered correctly ??? " ... x

" almost all which i attempted "

" if you are correct you made my future thanks a lot "

" what ?? how many did you copy ? "

" almost all except a few "

" great i though i must leave " i said

on the result day i got some very high rank in the state :) - this was me. i could get any branch in most of the nits... which reminded me of 'x' i calculated his roll no. from the sitting arrangement and if i was not mistaken even he managed to get a very high rank a little lower than me enough to get any major in the state ... i was shocked... did i make one more life or broke one.

his last words i heard were " thanks, i'll never forget you " - so would i

i couldnt sleep that night.

i still have lots of situations that cant be written at once may be you might see them in some other topics... but in majority of the situations i had won very well still i couldn't sleep the corresponding night. had i really won or lost ???

well... in majority of the situations i might reply something like " this guy(gal) will not succeed later in life even if (s)he succeeds now, what i have done is correct and what (s)he did was something called unfair and will have to pay eventually for it" does this always really happen ??? i rather feel it to be a sentence from my mind covering up my inability to take advantage of such a situation and make it more successful... a sentence to hide my guilt my incompetence...

and let me state one more thing here... every "x" above is doing quiet well in his(her) field irrespective of whatever (s)he did in the past. nobody is paying anything for any act as i might say.

hmm... i dont know what to say to all this. is it really unfair ??

well.. after thinking a bit i came up with something which can hide the unfair part of these situations...

in a more sophisticated way these can be called as being PRACTICAL.

in every situation above a truthful approach might have resulted in not a very good consequences and other approach did such an approach can not be named good certainly.

the essence of this word is that as soon as this comes it hides all the things which make the situation unacceptable by majority of us however wrong they are

and now being practical if any of my friend recognizes 'x' dont write it in any comment or anywhere keep it with you... lets enjoy the flavor of secrets .... :)

the innovation

Mr Jobs ( APPLE ) is genius

- he makes the same products as others no new invention ( laptops, mp3 players ... )

- his products prices are high ( huh.. )

- assessors to his products are exclusive ( u have only got apple store or reseller )

- makes a very high margin on each product...

- stores are limited !!!

still he has something which other tech. companies don't

- one of the highest consumer satisfaction

- strongest brand in the market ( http://www.theregister.co.uk/2008/03/31/brand_poll/ )

- highly loyal costumers

is he a magician or what...??

well...

lets see with is usual products..

- IPOD

the best multimedia device

fast responding

huge memory

ease of use

high battery life

- IPHONE

best smart phone in the market (http://mobchina.blogspot.com/2007/12/iphone-best-smartphone-in-us-according.html)

ease of use

fast responding

- NOTEBOOKS

true multitasking

rarely hang ( awesome )

ease of use

superb screens...

the list is end less

well i am not a business expert still i somehow feel to know why his products are outstanding in the competitive market despite of the major cons...

the real thing is that this person loves what he does...

he doesn't work merely for working he likes it :)

and thus his love made him an expert in his work

he innovates ( or so does his employes ) if you closely watch his products they are totally different from the rest each and every part of them is different from the rest carefully carved

so this here brings me to a conclusion " it is not possible to achieve the ultimate goal until and unless i love what i do" !!!

and infinitely more important " if i do something i dont love i am certainly wasting 100% of my time ! "