day before i was just sitting in my room implementing a project on some accelerometer gyroscope sync and stuff...( 4get it might be too technical just some robotics project :) )
and as usual i got stuck somewhere... sad :(
u know what i feel is that its a human tendency that when (s)he gets stuck in something (s)he either (1) starts hating it to maximum extent or (2) gets more excited to get out of the situation...
speaking truth i have been the victim of both... mostly (2). but yesterday somehow situation (1) took over my brain and as usual after a little thought over my project my thoughts started wondering all over the universe ... from the death of michael ... girls ... to british army ... girls ... bill gates ... girls ... steve jobs... i don't know somehow i think about these 2 guys and a word something like success or crap flashes to my mind ( weird !!! ) ... and this ultimately leads to my future thoughts... may be i would love to do an mba from hbs or kellog or some place... then some lot of hard work and stuff... but more importantly this follows with a thought in my brain so entangled in itself and my brain that the more i think the more confuse i become lets see it...
i will put down some of few very important situations in my life which i think i will never forget and then lets see if i come up to some solution...
NOTE : every incident is REAL from my life and there is no work of fiction. and one more thing in any situation i might refer to a person ( REAL ) lets call him(her) 'x' i don't want a bunch of people coming and beating me if they so happen to read this :) ...
situation 1
scenario :
class 9th maths 2nd term answer sheets distribution.
into it :
mam called out my name. i went there took my paper came back... as usual i got some 96% crap... me happy... mom and dad happy... teacher happy hard work worked.
'x' mam called out. x happened to be a very nice friend of mine but not so good at mathematics actually speaking at any subject. came back sat beside me. "shit i got 53 u got a red pen ?? " x asked me. " nopes " i said. well let me tell you this friend of mine 'x' is a very determined person got up and came back a few minutes later with a red pen. " here it is two c's and my 53 turns into 58... :) :) :) " - this was his face... still not satisfied.
"boss ... my totaling is 68 not 58, i'll say mam she'll ask u to verify because you are sitting beside me you got high marks you are her favourite... oh forget you just ask her to verify my paper as soon as i ask her for my total mistake when she comes here. just do it or i might have to repeat the class. " me... surprised... plan successful... his answer sheet in my hands. i didnt know what to do, shall i break the trust of my teacher or shall i be responsible for one year of my friend 'x'... both options were unfair to me. ultimately my friend won. " mam a totaling mistake in his paper one 6 marks and one 4 marks questions not added "... she came to my seat smiled at me and wrote 68 on his paper... now all happy. i couldnt sleep that night.
situation 2
scenario :
just before the start of our chemistry 12th board practical examination.
into it :
" you did everything ?? " ... x
" yes you ?? " ... me
" yeah "
" so where are you hiding it ?? "... x
" in my pocket :) "... i said nervously
" so am i " ... x proud of himself
"y" enters into the situation
" you both got it ?? "... y
"yeah" ... me
" you'll be using it ?? "
" definitely.... :) " ... x
" dont do it its not right "... y
" fuck you " ... me
ok "it" here refers to a very famous object used in examinations to save oneself from the failure and come out happily from the examination hall if used properly or the consequences can be extremely dangerous. yes you got me right... a piece of paper with all the info. of the world written on it to help yourself that day ( as said very well" God helps those who help themselves " )... we made our own chits :):)
the exam went by and we used our object as efficiently as possible again... :) :) :)
result came by...
me and "x" got full
"y" lost some 2 or 3 marks
(s)he was still happy...
even i was very happy
i slept very well that night ... finally !!!! :):)
situation 3
scenario :
me into aieee examination hall... nervous
into it :
" hey " said x sitting beside me
" hi "... was not in a mood to talk to him
" how r u ? "
i didnt reply
" listen i am sitting in here but i know least i know cant get through this it seems you have studied a lot can you show me ???? "
what a freak i thought its a national level examination nt kiddin if something happens we both screw our carriers before it starts. i knew what he wanted still i asked " what do you want to see?"
"the answers, you just write normally and dont intentionally hide it dont see towards me behave i am not there dont worry nothing is going to happen i was in this school only ( the center ) our invigilator today is an idiot i know her well i use to eat my lunch in her class she never caught anybody too lenient. "
"ok but dont disturb me at all "
"you wont even know that i am seeing " :) - his face
exam started after every answer i ticked he turned few pages of his paper and ticked something.
after the exam was over
" hey how many answers are you sure you have answered correctly ??? " ... x
" almost all which i attempted "
" if you are correct you made my future thanks a lot "
" what ?? how many did you copy ? "
" almost all except a few "
" great i though i must leave " i said
on the result day i got some very high rank in the state :) - this was me. i could get any branch in most of the nits... which reminded me of 'x' i calculated his roll no. from the sitting arrangement and if i was not mistaken even he managed to get a very high rank a little lower than me enough to get any major in the state ... i was shocked... did i make one more life or broke one.
his last words i heard were " thanks, i'll never forget you " - so would i
i couldnt sleep that night.
i still have lots of situations that cant be written at once may be you might see them in some other topics... but in majority of the situations i had won very well still i couldn't sleep the corresponding night. had i really won or lost ???
well... in majority of the situations i might reply something like " this guy(gal) will not succeed later in life even if (s)he succeeds now, what i have done is correct and what (s)he did was something called unfair and will have to pay eventually for it" does this always really happen ??? i rather feel it to be a sentence from my mind covering up my inability to take advantage of such a situation and make it more successful... a sentence to hide my guilt my incompetence...
and let me state one more thing here... every "x" above is doing quiet well in his(her) field irrespective of whatever (s)he did in the past. nobody is paying anything for any act as i might say.
hmm... i dont know what to say to all this. is it really unfair ??
well.. after thinking a bit i came up with something which can hide the unfair part of these situations...
in a more sophisticated way these can be called as being PRACTICAL.
in every situation above a truthful approach might have resulted in not a very good consequences and other approach did such an approach can not be named good certainly.
the essence of this word is that as soon as this comes it hides all the things which make the situation unacceptable by majority of us however wrong they are
and now being practical if any of my friend recognizes 'x' dont write it in any comment or anywhere keep it with you... lets enjoy the flavor of secrets .... :)
